Inside Closed Eyes
by Kailleaugh Andersson
He had power. Not the
kind of power that you can get from fame or money, but the savage type; the type of power that some are born with, that swirls
up inside of their head and penetrates into your weak soul from the cold stare of their eyes. That type of power that just
says "Obey me." It didn't matter that from a distance he looked like a frail and greying old man, or that his black suit was
tattered, moth eaten and soiled with blood. Just one glance from those dead-like grey eyes and you knew the meaning of fear.
Savage. Nothing but power staring at you and your reflection caught in the abyss of otherwise empty black pupils. Never mind
that he was standing in my doorway.
"You got a phone? My
car broke down."
His voice was like his
body, old, fading and nearly broken, his grey hair plastered to his skull from his sweat.
"Yeah. Come on in."
What the fuck was I
thinking, letting this complete stranger into the house in times like this?! Especially someone like him on a night like this?
At any moment they'd break down the doors and burn him to a cinder in the dustbowl that I consider my front yard. That's it,
they'd bust in the fucking doors armed with clubs and an occasional shotgun, a whole street corner congregation worth and
beat him into submission. Then they'd drag him by the hair and arms, kicking and screaming into the front yard where they'd
burn lit cigarettes into his eyes and skin until they'd slosh gasoline all over him and finally ignited him with a single
match. I'd seen it a half dozen times, seven to be exact. Hard to lose count of how many times you've seen something like
that. It happens so often that you almost feel sorry for them. Almost ...
I'd showed him the phone
and left the room, but I could hear the clicking and spinning of the rotar as he dialled, and finally his fading voice, but
too low and inaudible to make out the conversation. Destined for a Friday night pyre or not, I figure everyone deserves a
bit of privacy. Even his kind... Even if it was one of his kind who'd killed my sister when we were kids, and I remember it
intimately enough, even though I was only eight.
If I close my eyes,
I can still hear her screams from the backyard, and still feel my heart in that explosive rhythm as I ran across the plush
grass to the back yard. It had come over the fence for her and even though the scream inside my head seems to last forever,
it had killed her quickly. It seems like I run forever, but it was only in a mere moment that her scream had ended and I saw
it sitting there next to her, its arms looking as if they had been elbow deep inside of her for all of the blood.
I open my eyes, the
screams cease and he is standing there in front of me and for who knows how long, staring quizzically at me, nearly like a
"Bad memories?" he asks,
his voice nearly as if concerned.
"Something like that."
"I see..." he remarked.
He'd read my mind of
course. I know that now. I'd heard they could do that, but I had never believed it and had written it off as simple superstition,
as stupid as that may sound when you consider the fact that things like them were thought of as nothing but the insane superstitions
of ignorant backwoods, East European peasants when my parents were kids.
"Yeah. My sister." I
replied. "She was killed when we were children by ..."
I stopped, realizing
that if I made a mistake, I was dead. I mean D-E-A-D, fucking dead, if I made the mistake of blatantly informing him that
"By one of my kind."
Oh, he knew! I'd fucked
up. If they didn't get here fast, I was dead. I knew that much. He'd kill me, suck my blood out and wallow in it. He'd be
unstoppable then for a time.
"If it's any consolation
..." he paused, as if searching for the right words. "Well, I'm sorry; even though I know it doesn't change things or stave
off the loss."
He looked at the floor
and didn't say a word.
I was shocked, but of
course it was too late. I'd never expected that one of the things could be capable of sympathy or other emotions and it made
me realize that I'd made a mistake, for at that very moment, the front door was flung open and a sea of red faces, flushed
with anger and sweat had rushed in like a flood and overwhelmed him.
Of course, I'd been
the one to make the call as I'd seen him toiling over the broken down car. I'd been the one who called for this death squad.
And I could hear his screaming outside as
I closed the door and the bright hue of a conflagration shone on the dusty window panes.
That penetrating scream, like the sound
of a breaking spirit.
I close my eyes, and for the first time,
in the darkness there is a silence.
Copyright 2000 by Kailleaugh
Kailleaugh Andersson was born in Oregon and presently resides in Scotland. He is married to erotic horror writer
Alex Severin. He has over 250 fiction publishing credits since 1989, despite a six year hiatus of not submitting his work.
His new fiction collection, 'Happy Fun Ball & Other Stories to Read While Institutionalized' is scheduled for publication
by Massacre Publications in late 2003, but you can advance order your signed copy now at Shocklines.com For more information,
please visit - www.kailleaugh.com
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